Prophetess and other poems
In vain, censored melancholy, I sit.
You pick words as though they are daisies,
And piece them together meticulously.
I donít do jigsaw puzzles.
The final picture confuses me to no end.
God knows I need no more.
Art has always been a fickle lover,
But at least not dutiful, as yours.
You render the best words devoid
How can it be your love? So deliberate.
Planned and precise.
For most red is the height of passion.
draw from a complete palette.
And then I saw his face above the stars.
ĎNeath trough and trow I gaped, inferior.
My hand stopped work (unknown) still sown with scars.
They trembled slightly as the face grew near.
It filled my vision and my shrunken mind.
An apparition, coming with a flood.
I braced my fear Ė to stand made muscles grind.
He stole resolve; I fell face-first in mud.
No words were said and none were lost in need.
His purpose was clear, an idol to praise.
Unwritten rules gave no choice but to heed
The benevolent gift of accolades.
Tíwas a present to me, a subtle nod.
Faithfully now, I can believe in God.
This is an ugly poem.
This is a fucking ugly poem.
But itís true.
And truth and beauty can not coincide
Because this is Truth, and this is an ugly poem.
I donít really hate myself
But I try to
Because you do
And the voice of the people
I do really cut myself even though I donít really hate myself.
Because my life is a lie
And I am a lie
So my secrets might as well be too.
I want to make my death lie.
I lie in bed, close my eyes, and surrender.
Because I donít surrender.
I wait, pause, and smile.
I let you be.
But that is no yield,
For you to notice
Is extricable from me.
Samantha Enns is a junior at St. John's College in Annapolis, Maryland. Basketball, ballroom dance, and the Age of Reason continually threaten to take over her life, but she carves out time to write on occasion. Miss Enns has been previously published in Hobart Pulp and Bewildering Stories. She encourages you to contact her at RetrogradeSonnet@gmail.com.
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Poems Copyright © 2007 Samantha Enns. All rights reserved.